Blissfully unaware of my own unworthiness

When I was a sophomore at Wright State University in Dayton, Ohio, I did something that still makes me shudder at my own naivete ~ I ran for school president. I remember debating other candidates in the student center about issues I knew nothing about. Faked the whole thing. Once, while giving my stump speech at the Engineering club, I saw a few students mocking me in the back row at my ignorance. You could say I was blissfully unaware of my own unworthiness. And I lost the election badly.

When I planted this church, I was blissfully unaware of my own unworthiness as well. I didn't know how much shaping and molding I was going to need as a leader. It's a good thing I didn't because I'm not sure I would have gone through with it. It's painful, uncomfortable, humbling...

When God calls us to something, he invites us into a process of character development first. When we give-up, quit, or leave, we can use all sorts of excuses to justify it... but the reality is... we didn't want to be refined. And we miss out, ultimately, on the great rewards God had for us on the other side of the furnace. We go somewhere else and start right back up at the beginning... in our unrefined condition... blissfully unaware.

Comments

[Darren]

This was good, man... thanks.

[Jeff Mangum]

Bro,

This is the post that screams from inside me. I'm 2 years in and I was just thinking this week..err, this month...err, this year how naive and ignorant to my reality that I really was...and probably still am. Thanks for writinug this and allowing me (us) not to feel like I'm (we're) the only ones. See ya at NCC in a couple weeks!